Crap.

I ate crap yesterday. I didn't work out. I am so mad at myself. WHY? Why do I do this to myself? I am going to the stupid gym tonight. I AM. I'm gonna quit eating bad too, it just makes me lazy. UGH

Bawling... (measurements week #2)

I am bawling my eyes out right now watching the Biggest Loser. The contestants are going home to their families this week, some lost as much as 125 lbs. What an accomplishment! The families are so happy to see their loved ones healthier and happier. That's the feeling I want to have, I want people to see me and be like, "Damn, Nicki looks great!" Not "Oh man Nicole gained a lot of weight".

 

No food tastes as good as that would feel, I just need to remember that. I do a lot of mindless eating, just eating out of boredom or habit when I'm not even really hungry.

 

And can I just add that these freaking St. Jude commercials are heartbreaking!!!!!!! ugh

 

So this weekend I went out of town to visit my sister, she is so skinny!!! But she barely eats and when she does, it's healthier stuff and not such big portions. She has all nutritious food in her house, which I have learned to keep nothing but healthy food also, then I'm too lazy to go get bad food! haha So sad! We went to grab brunch on Saturday and we got nachos and tostada's, my sister makes a comment, "I never eat this crap" as I am looking down thinking, "I ALWAYS eat like this" And that is the problem!! I need to save it for specials occasions. We had a conversation and basically food is not a priority for her, and for me, it's what I look forward to everyday, all I think about. What will I eat today? Tomorrow? This weekend? I need to stop making food a priority. I definitely ate bad BUT I didn't eat near as much as I would being bored and work and snacking, so let's do measurements and see how that panned out...

 

Weight: 187     (ooh down 1 lbs. that's a miracle!!)

Body Fat: 40.9%    (down quite a bit, WOW must have been the dancing! ha)


Circumference of:

Bicep: 13.5  (same. blah)

Neck: 13  (down .5! Woot)

Bust: 42.5  (of course down .5 you will see consistent loss here. lol)

Waist: 39  (oh yeah, .5 baby, that's what I like to see!!)

Butt/Hip: 44  (same)

Thigh: 24.5 (best thighs on the East Side baby STILL lol!) down. 5 though!!

Calf: 16.2  (down a tad)

 

Well, I am on my way!!!! This is great progress, but I know I can do better, and I will....

Till tomorrow...

I just got home from Phoenix... I am beat! I totally just went crazy and reverted back to my old ways.... BUT tomorrow is a new day and I have to take measurements. We shall see...

FML.

1st night of vacation... Not so much. Drank a lot and ate a triple triple animal style from In n Out Burger....

Nachos.

Nachos. I ate Nachos for dinner. Had 2 drinks and did NOT work out. I'm still feeling good though. This weekend will be the true test, I go to Phoenix. Nothing tests you more than a vacation! I do have work out clothes packed with plans to work out Saturday morning. I will obviously be drinking, but doesn't mean I have to eat like a maniac! So wish me luck, measurements should be interesting Tuesday.

On track

I did good yesterday. Though I did not work out, I ate really good. I ended up working late and I was upset about something, so the old me "normal me" would have stopped by taco bueno and ate has many taco's as humanly possible and then went home and passed out. But I didn't. I didn't work out, but I didn't eat bad either. I ate a total of about 900 calories yesterday, that is very good. That is one meal for the old me.

I have this thing where I only like to work out when I'm in a good mood. Who does that??? Most people work out to relieve stress. Not me, I want a happy go lucky work out. lol

So I overcame stress eating yesterday. Can I overcome perfect mood workouts? My next task!

Still had a 700 calorie deficit without a workout! I'm proud.